What would happen if?

Your ringtone throws me off…

Off into a world of what would happen if

What if God’s plan was for two souls to meet

And create a Barack & Michelle moment,

But wait a moment, Coretta has her King

But all I have is a dream,

Singing….Day dreamin and I’m thinking of you, Day dreamin and I'm thinking of you..

Thinking of what would happen if,

What if you were Jacob and I Rachael,

and we recreated one the greatest love stories in the bible,

but like Rachael, I would die after giving birth to this forbidden obsession, that has me bound and directionless

But I love you.....and you love me too so.... LOVE CONQUERS ALL, RIGHT

But our love is not on a battlefield boo....
We're not fighting for it to be recognizable, just for it to be understood

 You have given me something that can't ever be taken away, and that is a glimpse of how my future should be with a man in it and God's plan for it, 

My mama always told me that "you can't help who you fall in love with"..

But what if I'd helped myself to someone else's love...

They say that love hurts, but damn I didn't think that pain was a symptom,

Like a cancer in remission, it keeps coming back, slowly eating away at a part of my heart that was reserved just for you ....

....there is no amount of oxycodone that can make this pain tolerable...

My affliction comes from me not knowing if I or you will one day have this epiphany and 

say it's over, we both knew what it was.....

We agreed that this is not real,  just a figment of our imagination.. or better yet a TV reality show, starring us and an Atlanta Housewife....

Like Donald's Trump birther movement,

Our love just may be that immature, or prematurely irrelevant,

Though I would be remised if I still didn't wonder what would happen if,

What if W.E.B Dubois’ Talented Tenth had twelve

And we would be the plus two minus the third wheel,

But for real, I am addicted baby

Like an addict I’m feenin for my fix, that removes my guilt

Of allowing exposure to the other me....

What if the vision took a U-turn away from the purpose and..

The multiplication of our circumstance divided the people..

The Declaration of Independence says “We the People”..

But by declaring what is there, have we amended our right to love

To speak what shouldn’t be spoken, like "I Love you" or

To hear what shouldn’t be heard, like your heartbeat, or

To see what shouldn’t be seen, like your apologetic eyes, or

To feel what shouldn't be felt, like heartache, yet still I am wondering

What would happen if....

We woke up from this pleasant nightmare,

And all we had, are those what if’s....